It's been a long time since I've posted something on here! Mainly because, life has been nuts and crazy and altogether busy, but I am just about to start my regular job again and I am SO looking forward to some stability in my life.
Stability is something that so few of us recognize as important in our day to day lives. I have spent the last 5 or 6 years moving contantly, I've switched jobs a few times, never resting for a moment. And it's beginning to drain me. I've realized through working in a high school with children between grades 9 - 12 that any of these kids who are crying out for something, just want routine, stability, and usually a little bit of love. But routine and stability are lacking in so many of our lives it shocks me and it wasn't until I realized how drained I was getting from bouncing around all the time, did I really understand the emotional turmoil I was dealing with. The most important thing for us to remember as Christians is that no matter what kind of chaos is in our lives on earth, spiritually we have that stability, that rock and that is christ, he is neverchanging, everpresent and more than anything LOVING unconditionally. What more could a person ask for. As humans circumstances prevent these things from happening, prevent us from having stability, prevent us from having the people we need around us whenever we need them, and most of all, people are human and very few can show complete unconditional love. We all think we are showing unconditional love, but the bottom line is, there is always some restriction on it.
I've learned in the last few months that friends come and go, and no matter how much unconditional love they show you while they are around, the bottom line is, they can't ALWAYS be there! We always want something Tangible, (NO WONDER we try to find companions, people to live with, spouses etc...) Because without that constant presence, we feel empty, alone, unloved. I have so many people in my world that LOVE me, yet it seems, I'm always feeling these things. But I've learned that in those moments of feeling utterly empty and alone, in times like those if I just think about how richly I have been blessed by the wonderful people in my life and then compare to how much God MUST love me, considering he loves the greatest, there is nothing more comforting. I'm not saying this is an easy stage to get to, It's taken months, and it's still not instantaneous. I need to continue DAILY to remind myself that God loves me. It's not a tangible, out there, anyone can see it kind of love, but when you dig, you can see it plain as day, because he shows you how much he loves you when he gives you those wonderful people, and instead of depending on them and sucking the life out of them, love someone else or them in return and ultimately THANK God for putting that person in your life! Because that in itself is how he shows us tangible love. God gives us people so that we can understand his love, even though it is much more vast than we can ever imagine.
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