A Disheartening Truth

As I was conversing with a potential dating partner from an online dating site about my love for Meryl Streep, I realized something rather disheartening. I realized that I could talk for hours about why I love Meryl Streep, but I've slowly been losing my ability to talk about just how much I love God.

This news left me feeling rather disheartened, and I realized,  it's time to write a blog about my passion for God,  something to ground me back to what I know is my truth.

Passion that is real ignites a fire underneath you that just spews out of you,  without conviction, it erupts whenever it wants to, sometimes you don't even know it's happening, but the volcano that is your passion is evident to anyone who comes in contact with you.

I'm passionate about people,  everything to do with people. I love watching people, studying them, learning what makes each of us unique,  what makes us tick.  How we interact with each other, react in certain situations, or something as basic as our choice of clothing.  We are a unique creature of God,  he gave us all the ability to make choices.  What is perfect for John may not be perfect for Harry, but that doesn't make John more amazing than Harry,  it just makes each of them unique.

God created that.

I said to a friend the other day, when I was particularly emotionally exhausted over a situation involving two groups of people that I both love and respect equally, "I wish I was less into people." Her response to me was the truth of someone who knows me very well. She said "You'll always be into people - most of the time it works for you."  She was right, and God created me that way.

We all have strengths and weaknesses,  things that make us different and desirable to one another.  If we were all the same,  wouldn't that be a boring world?

So back to my truth, my truth is that, yes,  I am passionate about people,  relationships, and I am SO in LOVE with LOVE, but guess what,  that's how God created me, and so when I make these decisions to get overly passionate about a situation involving people,  I just need to remember that God made me this way and if I turn to him,  he will guide me through it.  Because he is my truth.

So am I passionate about God,  yes,  have I taken the time lately to acknowledge that,  NO.  And this is my disheartening truth.

What I need to remember when I'm focussed on my other passions,  is that God created me to be passionate about those things,  and I should turn to him, and thank him for it.  Because he knew what he was doing.