Looking on the Flip side.

Have you ever made a decision and you just know it was the right decision, yet everything that happens afterwards just seems to be going downhill quickly.


That's how my life has felt in the last 4 months. The first month and a half... I Didn't have a job. Then when I got a job, There was still the everyday stresses of life. Like bills, relationships... etc...

But what I have realized is that I am just looking at all the negative stuff.. When really there is so much positive that has happened. When I didn't have a job, It gave me a chance to go to saskatchewan with my mom for a week. I got to see my auntie Jeannette & Uncle Grant, Uncle Ben & Auntie Rose, Cousin Lori, Cousin Neil, I got to see my auntie Bonnie & Uncle Luc, and I got to spend some good bonding time with my momma. Who wouldn't want more than that. Also, during the time that I didn't have a job, God looked after me. I was living with my auntie so She was a treat... She looked after me... She fed me, and still didn't charge me rent. Plus, I learned more about my aunt in that time then I ever would have. I got the chance to spend a week with my cousin Selina... having more fun than we would ever share with the public... haha...

Then when I Finally got a job, it was such a blessing. I had applied for many, and then suddenly a friend from church phones me and is like... do you need a job... and I said yes, of course... and was hired immediately. But I Immediately made a trip back to edmonton to see all my friends there. But what I have realized... is my head is stuck in edmonton. Since I"ve gotten my job, I'm sad because I have been unable to see my friends in the city... But it hit me today... that I have had chances to spend time with people who I have put on the back burner since i went to College.

I've realized that those friends. Those friends from Bonnyville, are wonderful people, and I just don't appreciate them enough because they are not like my friends from edmonton... But why should they be.... I've made so many good new memories with family, and friends in Bonnyville, and yet, I've felt alone and secluded.

I guess what my point is... I need to start looking at my friends here, and quit taking them for granted. I complain that the friends I want to be with aren't here... when really it probably makes my bonnyville friends feel like they are unimportant and don't really matter. When really the truth is, they are marvelous. They are always there for me. Friends like my Tammy girls, my Claudia, my friend Laura, and my family. My mom, Everyone. I just take for granted that they are always gonna be there. and I count on them being available for when I don't have anything better to do.

But I need to change my attitude. I need to phone them... and want to hang out with them. I need to not use them as defaults because I have nothing better to do. I need to cherish my friends the way that they cherish me. I need to look at them as the wonderful people that God has placed in my life at this time. I need to keep my head in a positive light.

So to my friends who are always there, and who I don't make the time for.. To you and your wonderfulness. I will no longer take you for granted. Because you were placed in my life by God. He has given me friends and family like you guys, just because you are what I need!