Fixing me first!!

Lately I've been thinking about the future, and never do I seem to have a concrete thought about how I see my future. There are lots of things I'd like to see happen in my life, but often when I start to think about the future, I begin to think about the present and feel very defeated, like I'll never get there.

It's kinda hard cause a lot of my friends are married, having children, or they at least have a significant other. I know, a lot of people say, you;re better without one, don't rush it, God will provide. I truly believe that God will provide, sometimes, it;s just hard to have patience.

I truly believe that it is all in God's timing and I realize now, that he has not put a guy in my life for many reasons. I have a lot of things to work on. I'm a fixer and that is a terrible thing to be in a relationship, because you can't change people, I have a hard time not trying to solve peoples problems and so often... people don't want someone else to tell them how to fix their problems. They want someone who they can share with and chat with, and have fun with, not someone who is going to tell them that this is how they fix this problem and this is how they fix that one.

That is one of my biggest issues, so right now, that is the one I am focussing on fixing. Don't get me wrong, I have way more problems than that, but I fear that my inability to just accept someone as they are, has made me a somewhat unattractive person to be around.

So guys, friends, let me know when I'm trying to fix. Let me know when my opinions are getting in the way of forming true meaningful friendships with people. I might not take it well initially, but I will go home and think about it, and probably realize that you were right.

p.s. Trying to fix others, is just me avoiding trying to fix myself, cause that's a really hard thing to do.