If I've learned anything at all, it's that life is nothing without people to share it with. I spend my days surrounded by people; Children running up and down the halls, coworkers trying hard to slow them down, but through most of it I just feel lost in the Chaos. That is, until, someone comes along, blocks your path and makes you see yourself in their eyes.
It is these path blockers who make one realize that we really are not alone on this earth even if we often feel that way. It is those people who make us aware of the impact that we have on those around us. On days when we feel as if no one loves us, or as if we are nothing to anyone at all, it is those days when a friend, or someone who comes as connotatively correct to the meaning of a friend, in a small way, makes us realize how very very much we make a difference in their lives. It is those people that make life what it is. It is the touch of a friend's hand when they see you are truly lost in the land of the living lost, it is the kind word from someone wonderful when you are thinking no one loves you, it is these things that make all the difference.
I guess what I'm truly trying to say, is, I can't imagine a life without these people. There are days when I sit here wondering if anyone even cares what thoughts are going through my head, there are days when I put my all into my work, trying SO hard to help the kids, to help my co-workers and I may or may not do a good job of it, but I feel as if I could be replaced, there is someone as good at what I do as I am, I'm nothing special. When thoughts like this cross my mind, it's like God whispers in someone's ear and says: "Tell Alicia that she is special." And it is in these moments when I realize how amazing people really are. How blessed I am to have friends who I know no matter what, no matter how much I ignore them, they will always pick up the phone when I call, they will always try to make time when I ask for it, and they will never never leave me alone if I ask them not to. When I am sitting thinking I give SO much to everyone else and never get anything in return, it is these people that should come into my head and humble myself to remember that I am not the only one who gives of herself, there are many many others who give SO much to make my life so much better.
As my friend and I were discussing today. These are the friends who when you are walking through the forest and you come across a bear, they aren't the friends who will push you to the side and run away, nor are they the friends who will attempt to beat the bear off while you run, these are the friends that grab your hand and you both run like hell trying to get out of the damn bear's way. No one goes first, No one is any more important than the other, we just run this crazy race together, pace ourselves and take it as it's handed to us, with supports all along the way to get us to the finish line.
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