New Year Resolution

Lately I've been thinking about who I am. What I stand for, and what I want for my life. I think that there is a lot of misconstrued actions and thoughts in my life. There is part of me who is still wanting to rebel, be the girl who goes out and parties and has a good time, but then there is the part of me who realizes that the girl who goes out and parties is just not me.

I'm the kinda girl who likes to socialize, who likes to be around people. But it seems that around this town, the only way to socialize is to go out and hang out with people who like to party. Most other people are too busy in their lives, they are content to sit at home with their family and do nothing.

I love getting together with people and playing games, watching movies, going for walks, sittin' down over a cup of hot cocoa. But it seems that everyone always has something else to do. Maybe I don't try hard enough. Maybe I don't call often enough, and that is probably a major part of the whole issue. I know I find myself content to be watching tv at my mom's house, and just hangin out with family, because I know it's safe to call them last minute and see if they want to do something. When with my friends, I always find that it's not a good time when I call so then I just end up hangin with my family anyway.

So my new years resolution is to quit being such a chicken. I'm gonna call my friends, I'm gonna not be afraid that I am interrupting, and if they are busy, I'm not gonna take it personally, I'm gonna try and understand that other people have lives, and that often, I am busy when they try and hang out with me. So... I want you guys to hold me to that. If I call once, and you're busy... And I don't call back for like a month. Call me... Cause really.. I'm never that busy, even if I do work every thursday night and every second weekend on top of my 9-5 regular job. But that leaves me every other weekend, and 3-4 nights every week off. So no more excuses, this girl is gonna have a social life, and not a social life that is made up of partying, but A social life that is full of the good times, the times that actually form lasting memories and great friendships.